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Chasing After Rainbows: June 2009

27 June 2009

Tribute to Michael Jackson - R.I.P June 25, 2009

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(from Facebook)

On the Sad morning of June 25, 2009 Michael Jackson was discovered collapsed at his rental home in Los Angeles. 911 emergency services responded promptly at 12:21 pm Pacific time arriving at 12:30 pm to find Michael unconscious and not breathing. He was rushed to the UCLA Medical Center and after a brief slip into a coma Michael was pronounced dead at 2:26pm; the cause reported as cardiac arrest. THE Los Angeles Police Department has opened an investigation and an autopsy is scheduled for Friday, June 26, 2009.









(from YouTube)

Michael lived a very colourful life and during a short 50 years he made an indelible mark on the planet Earth. Whether or not you are a fan there is nobody who can deny his impact and the memory of him which will persist in all of us indefinitely. Spread the word of Michael Jackson's legacy and make sure everyone will always remember.

NEW YORK, NY June 25, 2009 Michael Jackson, one of the most widely beloved entertainers and profoundly influential artists of all-time, leaves an indelible imprint on popular music and culture.

Commenting on his passing, Sir Howard Stringer, Chairman, CEO and President, Sony Corporation, said: Michael Jackson was a brilliant troubadour for his generation, a genius whose music reflected the passion and creativity of an era. His artistry and magnetism changed the music landscape forever. We have been profoundly affected by his originality, creativity and amazing body of work. The entire Sony family extends our deepest condolences to his family and to the millions of fans around the world who loved him.

Rolf Schmidt-Holtz, CEO, Sony Music Entertainment, said: Michael Jackson's unsurpassed artistry and beloved music brought joy to every corner of the world. We join today with his millions of fans in expressing our profound sadness and we offer our deepest condolences to his family and loved ones. It was a true privilege for all of us in the Sony Music family to work with one of the most talented superstars in the history of music. We will miss him greatly.

Martin Bandier, Chairman & CEO of Sony/ATV Music Publishing, said: Michael was the kind of amazing talent that comes along once in a lifetime. He was an incredible recording artist, an insightful businessman, an unmatched performer, and a true icon. To all of us at Sony/ATV Music Publishing, he was also a trusted and passionate partner, who was very proud of our accomplishments. He will be dearly missed. We wish his children and entire family our deepest condolences.

Five of Jacksons solo albums Off the Wall, Thriller, Bad, Dangerous and HIStory, all with Epic Records, a Sony Music label are among the top-sellers of all time. During his extraordinary career, he sold an estimated 750 million records worldwide, released 13 No.1 singles and became one of a handful of artists to be inducted twice into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. The Guinness Book of World Records recognized Jackson as the Most Successful Entertainer of All Time and Thriller as the Biggest Selling Album of All Time. Jackson won 13 Grammy Awards and received the American Music Awards Artist of the Century Award.

Michael Jackson started in the music business at the age of 11 with his brothers as a member of the Jackson 5. In the early 1980s, he defined the art form of music video with such ground-breaking videos as Billie Jean, Beat It and the epic Thriller. Jacksons sound, style and dance moves inspired subsequent generations of pop, soul, R&B and hip-hop artists.





26 June 2009

Review of Spring 2009 Anime

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Links:
Winter 2009 review
Spring 2009 list

Huh? Anime like "Library War", "Kure-nai", "Strike Witches" was Spring/Summer 2008 anime? Already? It seem that these were out not too long ago. Oh, and "Welcome to the NHK" (Summer 2006) too? Time sure flies...

Anyways, here's a write-up of what I had seen through for the Spring 2009 anime. If it's a 11-13 episode series, it would be the entire thing, but if it's scheduled to have more, I would cover what I have already seen. Since I have dropped all the Winter 2009 anime, including "Sora Kake Girl", I won't be reviewing any of those.

  • Eden of the East (東のエデン): Though the character design does not have the features from a typical anime, the great storyline and the details of places (like Whashinton DC) and objects makes up for it. The shocker about it was that the series ended as a cliffhanger with 2 movies scheduled in end-2009 and early-2010. Reminds me of: Code Geass as that was also an original not based on media like manga or visual/light novel.
  • K-On! (けいおん!): Everyone's favorite anime! The light music club of an all-girls' school! It's hard to say in words, but it already looks good on the analog broadcast, but fantastic on the HD widescreen version. (Wonder what the Blu-Ray would look like) I have never seen an anime like this for quite a while. The only other anime I could think of that has characters perform any song as part of the anime itself (not as background music) was Marcross Frontier or The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. I had taken a look at the 4-koma manga it was based on, and found that the anime version is expanded and flows between each scene nicely. The awkwardness I found is that Azusa, who is introduced mid-way, is added as an extra character in the OP when playing with the band, but missing in the other scenes. The timeline seemed fast-paced when compared to other anime. The craze from K-On seem to drive up sales of musical instruments and other things relating to the anime. (Seems that the Toradora craze not too long ago has faded out.) Too bad it ended at 13 episodes, but that's where the manga ends. Reminds me of: Toradora for character development, Death Note for progress in storyline, Marcross Frontier for the songs, Clannad for character design (except the eyes), Lucky Star for being based on a 4-koma manga. Noticed that most KyoAni anime design of places seem to be based in places around the Kansai region.
  • The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (涼宮ハルヒの憂鬱): At first, it seemed like a repeat of the Spring 2006 anime, but it was aired in chronological order, and some new episodes (with new OP & ED for them) added in-between. The new episodes are based on the light novel in chronological order along with the older episodes. The most of the first 12-14 episodes, however, consists most of what was already aired in 2006. Looking at the timeline, it seems that most of the new episodes would happen later on. Reminds me of: Hidamari Sketch for the episode order, Toradora for being based on a light novel.
  • Hayate the Combat Buttler 2nd season (ハヤテのごとく!!): Picked up where the 52-episode Spring 2007 anime (read: ended in March 2008) left off. Since the production was done by JC Staff instead of Synergy SP, changes in character design were noticeable. Not sure if this is good or bad, but the first season seemed that there are too many filters and it's storyline seem to head downhill from the first episode. I don't know about Synergy SP, but JC Staff also produces great anime like Shakugan no Shana, Toradora, To Aru Majutsu no Index, and also Hatsukoi Limited described below.
  • Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood (鋼の錬金術師 FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST): This is a remake of the original series. In terms of amount of action, I would say that it's the same level as Code Geass and Eden of the East, where it's near impossible to look away and not miss important things.
  • Hatsukoi Limited (初恋限定。): Hmm, I don't know what to say. It's great, but focusing on various characters for each episode, but somehow know each other, seems like something is missing. Some of the voice actors did K-On too and it seems that the same people who did Toradora were involved with this too with dull colours, something's-wrong-but-I-don't-know-what character design, and not to mention that the credits has the exact same font as Toradora!.
  • Natsu no Arashi (夏のあらし!): The storyline itself is not bad, but the production studio, SHAFT, has added in too much references. They would work on "Negima!?" and "Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei", but not here... Their OP and ED they had done is actually quite nice. Oh, I noticed that this is the first production by them since "Negima!?" that looks sharp in HD. Character design is inherited from the manga, but they look... um... odd. Anyways, hope they don't mess the upcomming "Bakemonogatari", as the trailer animation reminds me of "Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei" OP.


Also, here's a review of other anime I had watched, but dropped or did not paid attention to:

  • Pandora Hearts (パンドラハーツ): This happened to fill in the time gap between "Eden of the East" and "K-On!", and is on the same channel as the lattter. Never really paid attention as to what was going on as it was never my interest to watch this in the first place. If it weren't for those weird costumes and hairstyles, I might watch it too. And what's with the depressing colours?
  • Phantom ~Requiem for the Phantom~: I don't remember why I stopped watching this, but I know it had something to do with fighting scenes that are too long in the first episode or something.
  • Tears to Tiara (ティアーズ・トゥ・ティアラ): Happened to watch this out of boredom. Comments for the character design is the same as Pandora Hearts above. I could have sword that the character design was completely different when this anime was first announced.
  • Shangri-La (シャングリ・ラ): This is one of the few I have watched several episodes in, but dropped. I think the episode I dropped at was after the 3 weird men (with one making weird sound effects). Did not drop because of them, but more of how slow it is to progress the storyline. And what's with those 2 transsexuals?
  • Saki (咲-Saki-): It's a majhong-themed game. I don't understand how to play that game, so watching it is like entering a battlefield and not know what you are fighting against. Because of this and the Chinese names of the terms, I stopped watching it before I get my head fried trying to get what is going on.


I will be writing Summer 2009 anime soon, but seeing that I would be away from home for quite a while, and the limited time when I'm able to, I would try to limit on what to watch. Not to mention those 3 anime carried over from the Spring season. Also, I won't be doing as much as what I did for the Winter 2009 list with all those images, links, and timings on each TV station: I'm not in the mood for that.

29 June 2009: Hmm, on second thought, maybe I will not do it. I will still do the review of the recently-ended season and list upcoming anime on the main and anime blogs though.

24 June 2009

Alternate Dimention (Part 28)

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We stayed in the school until quite late at night to help around with some last minute preparations. I saw Saeko looking at me from the outside before disappearing into the crowd. I haven't seen Kenjiro since I was in my former class earlier. I saw most of his classmates walking out of the school gate around sunset along with most of the other students, so I guess he must have headed back home too. There's now only Kotomi's class and a few others that are still around, so the school is mostly deserted with the outside being dark now. Since Kotomi is not involved with the act herself and is somewhat emotionally unstable (after what happened earlier), she did not hang around too.

I noticed that most of those who stayed behind are third year students. I guess this could be the last time they would enjoy the festival as students and with many people they know as carefree people. That feeling seems to be missing in college and in the adult world, there are a lot of people you can't trust without them backstabbing or asking for something that may not be in your favor in return. Also, you might not see them again for a long time, if at all, after graduation. I have already experienced that too many times with primary and middle school graduations, especially the former as I was there for 6 long years. Too bad the technology back then meant that there was no instant messaging or social networking sites, and most did not have mobile phones or email. I think my parents and grandparents had it tougher, but at least they could talk to people in the village and know them well for a long time. Haven't seen my grandparents or visited their house since primary school. Wonder how they are doing? They seemed quite old the last I saw them.

It's starting to get really late that the last train home could come at any time now. Kenjio was waiting for me outside by the gate. He was waiting for me? My mind is mixed whether I should go to him or avoiding him, but he must have been there for hours if he really was waiting. Aww, does he like me? I feel bad for him. (Eh? What's with this trail of thoughts I'm having? It's completely different from when I was still studying in this school...)

Me: "Oh, Tanigawa-san. Were you waiting for me?"

I feel odd calling someone I know well formally, so is him calling me by my family name. But I'm still not used to "Mamiko" as my name (and, before becoming a clone, "Saeko") when I was used to be called as "Itsuki" all my life, which Kenjiro normally calls me as. I doubt he knows me as I am now, but what he knows about me from back then seem to turn into an affection for me. We were best friends, but it's strange to turn that relationship into that as a couple.

Kenjiro: "Hisakawa-san! Well I had forgotten something when I reached home and came back to take it. It was when I saw you walking here on the way out that I decided to wait for you."

You're lying! I saw you standing there since everyone had left in the early evening.

Me: "That's good to hear. So are you heading home now?"

Kenjiro: "I would like to, but to get there, I need to transfer across several lines as it's quite far away. The problem with going home now is that some of the lines might have ended operations by the time I reach one the transfer stations, which itself is still quite far from my home. What about you?"

I have a feeling he wants to stay over at my house and have that something with me.

Me: "Well, I would be alighting at [name of my station], so it's just a direct line from the station. You can stay at my house if you like to. My parents are working overseas for a long time, so no one but me is at home now. We better hurry before the last train leaves."

Ack! Why did I offer him to stay at my house and mention that no one is at home?!! I don't know how I can keep a clueless face while saying that, knowing what will happen.

Kenjiro: "Thank you! I would really appreciate your kind offer."

*****

We reached the station near my house. There was hardly anyone there. I never head home this late, so I don't know if the station being this deserted is normal at this time. Because of that, along with the darkness of the place, I'm not sure if we are at the right station. The station signs and fixtures unique to the place tells me it is. The place outside the station is dark and dimly lit, so I am having trouble finding the way. For some reason, I started to tremble as though I feared something bad would happen.

Kenjiro: "Don't be afraid. I'm here with you. Just tell me which way it is."

I'm not afraid, but my body is forcing me with the feeling of fear. I normally ride my bike home from here, but Saeko cycled it home earlier... Also, should I let him know that I stay at the top of the tallest building visible from here? Since we are heading to my house anyway...

Me: "Well, it's across the bicycle park there, and then continue on through that narrow road around there. Then turn left at the T-junction with a convex mirror. From there, walk towards the tall buildings visible from there. I'll tell you more when we reach there."

On the way, we talked about what we did in the past. I don't know what we were talking about, especially the words that came out of my mouth. After navigating through the dimly-lit streets, we reached there. I ran towards the card reader and waited for him. For the fun of it, I entered the some numbers to let Saeko to open the doors instead of using the card with me. That should alert her that we are here and give her time to hide. I can't let her talk verbally with Kenjiro behind me, since she sound very much like me. Kenjiro did not see how I opened the entrance door. Due to the design of my house, it's possible to give visitors the impression that it's a regular apartment until they open the study hall door that looked that it might lead to the storeroom from the outside. That is, unless I use the entrance at the roof instead.

Kenjiro: "Oh? You're staying with your relatives here? This seems to be an expensive place to live in."

I thought I used the word "parents" earlier? Maybe he thinks I'm staying here because my parents are away.

Me: "Well, I guess you can say that. I myself don't feel comfortable staying in this kind of high-class places. Oh, the elevator that leads to my house is over there."

The speed the elevator was so quick that we reached at my level before we knew it. I don't like the feeling of my ears poping or the strong/weak gravitational force when riding this elevator. The only other alternative is the long, tiring stars or the helicopter.

Kenjiro: "I know I rarely take the elevator, but that one make me feel funny."

Wonder if he knows how high up we are. I opened the door and removed my shoes.

Me: "You can have whatever there is in the fridge and the snacks lying around in the kitchen. Feel free to sleep on the couch or my parents bedroom. I want to wash myself before heading to bed. Tanigawa-san?"

He's still standing outside looking at the name plate next to the door and kept referring to the view outside.

Kenjiro: "Hisakawa-san, this is your house, right? This expensive looking place at what seems to be the upper floors of this high-class-looking building."

I sense shock in his voice.

Me: "Erm, yes. I can prove that the things inside are mine, like that photo frame on the wall there of me and my parents."

Kenjiro: "So what are they working as?"

Good question. What are they working as? I don't know the answer to that myself.

Me: "Erm, let me take a shower now. I'm starting to smell awful."

I don't remember what happened next.

Chapter 5
Part 27 | Part 29

23 June 2009

404th post: Missing

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I feel that something is missing in my life.

Like the missing pieces of a jigsaw puzzle.

I don't know what it is, but it feels that I somehow need that something badly.

Where, when, and how I would find it, I don't know.

Might appear when I least expect it.

May look the same as everything else, but that particular one could be what I'm looking for.

Who knows how it would turn out.

Hope I would find it...

18 June 2009

401st post: New layout theme

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(originally posted on the updates blog a while ago)



I have replaced the Japanese version of my main blog with this new layout. Readers who had been to my layout-testing blog recently (before it got marked as a spam blog) or had been to my main blog (in English) around Mid-2008 or earlier with "Hatena :: Diary" at the top left. (Hatena is where the layout came from and had to modify to be usable as Blogger Classic code.) This was because the old one started to looked awful and it's kind of ironic that both the English and Japanese started off with the same layout theme at the time I first implemented it (forgot when that was though) and that the former blog started to drift apart. The same layout code was also gradually applied to all my other blogs, but with modifications to make them look different.

With this change, I have also changed the side navigation menu to the new style since the old one didn't really match well and can't even see the first post without scrolling down a bit. It's been cleaned up with fewer images and having one of the sidebars removed. The space freed up really helped me a lot on making the blog look better.

I looked back at it earlier this week and decide to use it, but I want it to work with Blogger XML instead of the Classic one to modify it easily. I don't need to get a whole new code: I just need to modify the existing one. If you ask me to do the same thing just a year ago, I probably would not know how to do it. Editing the size and additional words to the date involves further digging into the code accessible with the "Expand Widgets Templates" option checked. What annoyed me is that using Blogger's "Font and Color" settings seemed to only work for the colours and not the typeface of the text despite the code being there and had to modify the code manually.

Speaking of codes, I obtained the colour codes via Inkscape (the program I used to do my vectors) by pressing the button to take a screenshot (in Linux, a prompt soon follows asking where to save the screenshot you just did) and pasting it into the the program. This can get tricky: the bottom part (percentage varies) may become corrupted and appears to be random. Do note that the screenshot might be saved as "pastedpic_***.png" at the folder of where you last saved a file with this program (If unsure, check the properties.). To overcome this, paste the image in Paint first and save it as a PNG (or BMP) file and import it. Since the area of the colour you want to choose can be quite small, especially text, you might want to use the browser's zoom feature to the area in question before taking the screenshot.

The search box at the bottom right is rather unique too. Since it was copied over from the old code, which itself was from Hatena, I don't really know how it appears to be transparent, is fixed on top, and does not move while scrolling the page. I only know how to change the content or position it.


This comparison image was from last year, describing how different the layout of my latest post (back then) was rendered in various browsers with visible differences. Safari is the one that follows the web standards the most, and Internet Explorer (version 6 and earlier especially) the least.

I didn't make a screenshot before to the current layout, but I did manage to find one of the same layout from quite some time ago:

(It doesn't really differ much, doesn't it?)

And here's the one from before I used that layout:

(Looks nice, but the header image is too large. Despite the large screenshot, the first post can't be seen here. That thing between the header and the ad is an early version of the current side navigation menu. Can't believe how large the text was.)

Will I apply the new layout to the English version too? Well, I haven't decided on that yet, but I did apply the same, consistent, layout for the Anime (Japanese & English) and drawings blogs that previously had bizarre layouts and inconsistency that, looking back, is horrible.

17 June 2009

400th post: Renaming titles

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Well, the old title of my stories has been bothering me for a while. At the time of creating them, I don't really know how to name them. I spend too much of my time thinking of titles that I just put whatever was on my mind in there or was originally planning to write at first from scratch. However, it's these titles that don't seem to match much as the story progresses. Add that to the fact that most of the titles I could think of are used or are not good.

Naming characters is not as hard as the title. I never gave the exact name or location of places or the unique features because I don't have a clear idea of what the place looks like except the area where the main character frequents at.

1st story: You know the protagonist was never given a name, right? Well that was because he is already in Haruna Kobayashi's body, his childhood friend, after he had (supposed to have) died. I see no point giving him any as people are going to call him by the body he is in anyway. As I already mentioned that he was from a faraway country, what do I name him? Henry Lim? Also, Haruna's school was supposed to be a normal school, but due to mentions in the 2nd story as being a classmate, it became a large school academy. The size of the school was not mentioned in the first story, but was revealed that the average school is already considered large with better facilities compared to where the protagonist came from.

2nd story: I was originally not going to name the protagonist except Hisakawa as the family name as I just want readers to wonder what the gender is and know that it had changed later on. However, I found out that I had trouble describing things, so I decided that the main character turned into a female with Saeko as the name. After writing for quite a while, I found that I am writing "Hisakawa *****" quite frequently to refer to the former male self and could easily mix up with "***** ******" used for the main charcter of the first story. I end up giving "Itsuki" as the name and went back to modify. (I think I mixed up "Izumi Miyazawa" with "Kousei Miyazawa" on part 25.) Around the time shortly after the main character got clonned and got involved as a hit-and-run victim, the people that found her (the protagonist) became too important to not give a name. I gave the director "Kenji Hirano" and the daughter "Aiko Hirano".

3rd story: The main character was originally named Kotomi Honda (本田ことみ), but people seem to mix the family name with that car manufacturing company. Now changed to Miyazawa (宮沢; 宮澤 for her great-grandmother). Might give kanji for the name, but I'm not sure. I had also decided to make the main character be the girlfriend of the main character of the 2nd story and have it start more than a year before where the 2nd story started. That was when you suddenly made a character that appeared mid-way as a major character in the 2nd story. Because of her smartness, it was obvious to make the "Aiko Hirano" already mentioned as her cousin.

4th story: Haven't really decided yet, except that she's a distant relative of the main character of the 3rd story and takes place 4-6 years after the starting point of all the earlier stories. I want this to go through a faster pace through high school (and maybe mention little of it) and jump forward to college, then to work, and having a family. Since my mind is a blank as to how to write this, I'm going to concentrate on other stories for now.

The first story is named "An Original story by me" as I originally wasn't planning to write another or have it last for so long.
For the second story, the name "Alternate Dimention" was based on the fact that the protagonist had entered a different, yet identical, world and the title phrase was even mentioned at the beginning parts.
The third one is a bit complicated: it was a recycled name of what is now "Nijitoki" (my drawings blog) that was based on Yukari's blog named "Tokimeki no Hibi" (ときめきの々). I used Tokihi (トキヒ; originally 時日), but something doesn't seem right about the name and changing it was at a low piority. 時日 can also be read as じじつ to mean date/time. With the protagonist's charatistics more or less developed by now, I have decided on "苦境少女の心は深く泣いて", or "The heart of a troubled girl who cries deep in her heart", but that is obviously too long for the English title, so I re-looked at why I came up with that new Japanese name and came up with "Disoriented Feelings" for the English name. The old name is still visible in the tags and the URL prior to part 11 and it's first 2 specials.
For the fourth, I don't have anything to say other than that it's not fully established yet.
As for the other two (K-On!, The Story of a High School Student), they are not counted as my stories and are obviously based on anime.

In summary:
  • Titles of my stories were never finalized.
  • 3rd story has been renamed from Tokihi (トキヒ) to Disoriented Feelings (苦境少女の心は深く泣いて)
  • Wanted to rename 1st story, but can't think of anything.
  • I can write long text and not realize it when I know what to write.

15 June 2009

Alternate Dimention (Part 27)

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Kotomi dragged me to an empty computer room, locked up all the doors, and closed the curtains. She also turned on the lights, air-conditioning, and one of the computers. What was the point of closing the windows and switching on the lights? Something seems suspicious...

Kotomi: "A classmate of mine has fallen ill recently, but the problem is that she the main actress of an act my class has done. I know it's strange for me to ask you for this, but only you can fill in her spot in such short notice. Saeko is now in my classroom trying to rehearse, and to give them the impression that you, Mamiko, have actually practised."

I was going to ask why I was playing a female role, but I just remembered that I am now a girl myself now.

Me: "But you know I'm bad with memorising lines, let alone on such short notice. How do you expect me to pull this one off?"

Kotomi suddenly plugged a wire on me through the bottom of my skirt with the other end already plugged into the PC she just turned on. Strangely, I can't go any further than the wire when I'm plugged in and won't come off at either end when I try to. At that moment, I can feel my mind being accessed by an external force.

Kotomi: "I know you won't remember it the normal way, so this way is the best. I'll upload the script and program so that you could perform naturally at the actual performances."

Ah, programming myself: I did try it, but it does seem pointless unless I want to force myself to remember something or do something that I can't do out or fear or lack of knowledge. I didn't plug myself in since then as the idea of having my memories appear as files is strange. Fortunately, modifying them does not work on the operating system that seems to be the standard on every computer I come across for security reasons. The school here uses that uncommon operating systems so that students won't be able to install their own stuff (from that common OS) or modify it to the point that it bogs down to be unusable without erasing everything and starting over. The school believes in unrestricted use of the computer, but not theft, vandalism, and causing inconvenience to others. Also, the school is fed up with limited-number-of-PC-installs per disc, troublesome online activation on top of entering the long, complicated, serial numbers, and being charged so much for the software on top of the common OS was using until they purchased the current batch of PCs. If people are really that desperate to install stuff and make critical changes, they would need to know code like
$> su -
#> rpm -ivh http://dafcsdo.thuyiu6u.fid/rfif5/g5ecu/egb65edjffco.rpm
#> yum install g5ecu
#> yum install ewofci-g5ecu
which practically only geeks and programmers of this OS would know, which is currently considered quite rare, even around the world.

I don't know what exactly Kotomi did, but I seem to suddenly gain knowledge of some sort that I knew didn't know anything about just a while ago.

Kotomi: "There, all done! All you need to do is to come here again tomorrow for the actual performance and... and..."

Me: "'And'?"

Out the blue, Kotomi kissed me on the lips. I could sense tears in her eyes and I could feel her breasts on mine and making me feel funny. Wait! I know I was your boyfriend just last year, but a girl showing affection to another girl is just plain wrong!

Kotomi: "Remember the time the principal called me to his office over the announcer on my birthday last year? I thought he dragged me there so that you guys have more time to prepare for my birthday party. At first, I thought he was weird. I didn't really though much of it until later on, but him saying about my body modified since birth made me think about that mysterious box in my uncle's office that was written in a foreign language that I can't read (German) that had photos of my mother on it. I still don't know what it's about till today, but he told me that it's best not to know about the truth. Also, just yesterday, I saw the footage Saeko had uploaded to my computer and a digital copy of a related article dated in the winter of next year about my own death. He told me about this last year, but I thought he was joking: it was hard to tell with that serious face of his. Also, the possibility of time travelling and this 2nd year 'Saeko Hisakawa' girl from your school did not occur to me to be your original body from this year until my cousin told me about you after the news of being deliberately hit by a speeding van."

The tone of her voice tells me that she doesn't want to die, but fate seem to made that to happen just next year. I don't recall travelling through time since the time I was molested to see Haruna Kobayashi's past, but my original body is now many years in the future who is now looking at the footage Kotomi was talking about on some futuristic-looking display screen. Saeko seem to just know that the Kotomi I saw last week was her from shortly before the incident that caused her death. No wonder she was behaving oddly at that time. Kotomi had stopped crying, but she's still on me.

Kotomi: "Well, seeing how things would happen, I should avoid time travelling or at least avoid them on that day completely for reasons I currently don't know. I certainly don't want to become blind after avoiding the trains too, and that there could be at other places or incidences in the future they could attack me. The best is to bring down the organization they belong to that has been bothering my uncle's company, but finding a way to do so is difficult as the police are after them for many years too, but none of the members caught knew who their boss was as the location provided was a fake or a random address that appeared in the media belonging to someone else who is not related to the organization. The voice of a call from him on the phone sounds synthesized, and made the police or phone operator to trace the call to a dead end. To make matters worse, he made it look like he called them from various parts of the world. My friend told me that her mom had been killed by her some years ago."

Me: "We can't just go charging at them and not knowing how big or powerful they are or what they can do. It's also possible that this person could be a rotten egg that hides what he actually does to higher ups so he could get funding."

Kotomi: "You're right, but I don't want to die!"

Kotomi kept on crying on. This situation seems complicated: the fact that this was even mentioned made me think that no matter what we will do, she would die the same way unless the time in question was a paradox of some sort.Things could happen differently now that her time and cause of death was informed more than a year before it actually happened and take action to prevent it as compared to not knowing anything about it. There are so many possibilities, but I shouldn't give up on this: I was killed several times before, but never actually died. However, I understand Kotomi's horrors of being killed.

Me: "Well, for now let's head back to class to test if what you had just uploaded to me works..."

Kotomi: "You're right, everyone's waiting and we've been here for too long."

Me: "Well, I shall go first while you..."

Kotomi: "Hey wait! Your're still..."

I tried to get up and leave first while Kotomi prepares to switch off the equipment in the room to leave the room, but barely after getting up, something at my bottom pulled me and fell flat on my face and was pulled a little closer to the PC from earlier.

Me: "Ow..."

Kotomi: "...connected to the computer. You can't remove it yourself unless it's safe to do so or someone else unplugs it."

Now I know why I never plug myself in: I rarely do so and could not accept the fact that I am some kind of an android now who was previously a clone of myself. However, I did not feel that my life started at the point of cloning, it's more of my mind being transferred into the clone's body and someone's or a new mind is now in my original body. My behaviour seems to have changed since then, however, to the point that they (including Kotomi) think that the present Saeko is still the me from before the cloning.

Chapter 5
Part 26 | Part 28

13 June 2009

399th post: Scheduled stuff

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It's hard to come up with something to write, but it's even harder to have it scheduled in the future and still remain relevant. That would explain why the numberings of some posts are skipped, as they were scheduled from some variable time in the past, but my stories and some posts aren't numbered.

Wanted to write something back on Wednesday (10 June), but I mysteriously fell ill and can't get out of bed with pain and headache all over. Strangely enough, I can't seem to fall asleep too.

09 June 2009

394th post: Large Foot?

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I was watching K-On! episode 6, when I thought I saw something odd: There was a extra large feet in the air at the center! Didn't really see this earlier as it was too fast.

I was like, (O_O) when I saw that.

08 June 2009

Disorientated Feelings (Part 11)

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(Continued from Part 10)

On a particular day not too long after I noticed people behaving strangely towards me, the principal had called me to his office at the end of school. Well, I don't have anything on today, so I don't mind being held back, but for what reason?

Since the announcement was through the PA, everyone knew about this. The only times I heard of a student being calling to the principal's office was if they had done something seriously wrong or something bad that had happened involving them, or, in rare cases, the student having outstanding performance and/or representing the school and want to reward them with something big, but what did I do?

I was clueless and worried at the same time.

The principal's office is located just next to the teachers' staff room. I myself had never been there before, so I don't know what it's like.

I knocked on the door.

"Come in," said an unfamiliar male voice.

I entered the room. The office seemed like a whole different place from the rest of the school with wooden walls, full-floor carpeting, and a bookshelf full of identically-shaped and labeling books. There is also a conference table with several large black office chairs along with other doors, with one that seem to lead to the staff room next door. At the desk was a man I last saw during my entrance ceremony who make that long boring speech.

Principal: "Miss Hisakawa, I presume?"

Me: "Yes! W-what is it did you call me for, principal?"

Principal: "I have been hearing a lot of you since the results of your entrance test to this school: Scoring full marks, being in the student council, working in sought-after job of a well known company at such a young age, managed to find access to the school's rooftop that was supposedly impossible to find, to having all the guys go crazy over you to the point that there's even a fan club."

Wait, how did he find out about the last 3 points? Especially the roof part.

Principal: "More importantly, why is it that you..."

He keep on babbling about things relating to me and what I had done, some of which made me wonder how he know things about me more than I know myself. How did he know Itsuki did "that" to me at his house? How does he know the tiny details of what I do? How does he know the exact hospital I was born in? How does he even know that I'm questioning myself? What is the point of this conversation? It's nothing but a waste of time!

Principal: "I'm not sure if I should be telling you this too, but a 2nd-year female student named Saeko Hisakawa of [insert name of Aiko's school here] wanted me to pass the message to you that someone will permenantly blind you and then throw you on a rail crossing and get killed by an oncomming train as a result of being dizzy not being able to see on a winter's day two years from now. That is, at the current course of time."

You're kidding, right? Predicting my own death and get killed as simple as that? 2 years is not too far away! However he seemed serious and doesn't seem to be the type to joke around. And who is this 2nd-year girl of that school named Saeko Hisakawa? She reminds me a lot of my Itsuki for some reason.

Me: "Are y-you serious?"

Principal: "Yes, I'm serious. If you don't believe me, either wait for that event to happen (which you probably don't want to), or check your computer that girl had uploaded to your computer a while ago. I can read people's minds through time and space, but focus more on bad things that will happen to my students that could otherwise be avoided. Also, there is also something about your body that your uncle modified shortly after you were born sixteen years ago today. You are best not to know the truth about this, but I know you will know about the truth eventually."

I don't know whether to laugh, cry, get angry, or even do anything. My uncle did something to me when I was born? But what? Besides me being smart, I'm just an ordinary girl... I don't get him....

Principal: "Well, I guess you are too shocked from this information overload that is too hard to believe, but you will understand quite soon. While you figure out how to avoid this terrible event from happening, why not get back to life as usual and enjoy the birthday party everyone has prepared for you tonight. And don't worry, no one had told me or had told anyone else what I just said to you."

He winked at me! What is that supposed to mean?

Me: "Erm, I'll make my leave now..."

I quickly made my way out. That principal sure is quite good at telling me a bunch of believable lies and still keep a serious straight face, especially when it's about me. He's so weird, I bet he is laughing hard on the floor right now, but I can't hear it from right outside his door. Me being called to the office in the first place is just a distraction to have everyone to rush down to my house to prepare! No wonder people are acting strangely lately: Today's my 16th birthday! I should have guessed when he said "...were born sixteen years ago today" smack in the middle of the garbage he was talking about earlier.

As I thought, everyone I knew was there and had planned a party. Even dad, Itsuki and Hiroko was there.

Did not have the chance to check my computer yet and was too sleepy at the end of the day.

(To be continued in Part 12)

07 June 2009

Disorientated Feelings (Part 10)

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(continued from Part 9)

It has been quite some time ago since my first face-to-face meeting with Itsuki Hisakawa, not sure if it's just me, but I feel that I am now even more closer to him since we are somehow already calling each other by our given names.

Because I found out that my IQ level is surprisingly high (which explains why everyone else seems like idiots), there was also the pressure for me to join the student council. I forgot that there was such thing as their presence seemed somewhat hidden and are not distinguished from students who are not in it except for major school events.

On the last day before the summer holidays, Itsuki would want to bring me to his house for the first time. He said that his parents are working quite far away, so they have not been back for many months now. Well, that's good, since having peace and quiet is quite hard to come by at my house: my younger siblings and mom keep bugging me even though I had the door of my room locked. They won't bother if they know (via mom) that I would be quite busy or don't see me opening my room door since I entered right after reaching home on a non-working day before dinner.

Itsuki's house happens to be near the station I always see Hiroko alighting at: the station that had the tallest, expensive apartment complexes that seem that it might complete between the end of this year or the beginning of the following year. I don't think mine or Aiko's family would want to move there even if they could afford due to sentimential reasons and the cost per unit, which itself is smaller than our houses. Saw the flyer some time ago, and the design does look nice.

When we reach the road crossing after we got out of the station, Itsuki walked down the road directly opposite from those apartments and bought some things in a convince store along the way. He seem to be buying cheap, low-grade stuff there for some reason. Out of pity, I insisted on paying for him with better-grade products. He said that he was running low on money as his salary from work eats up most of the expenses if he did not save and does not have much money in the bank. Just how bad is his situation compared to mine?

Well, just entering the Hisakawa household already answer that question: I could see weeds in the greenery that surrounds the house. The inside looked as though nobody lived there for ages with dust and cobwebs all over, except for the area between the doorstep and Itsuki's bedroom and the bathroom. There's even the stale air... Ack! How long ago did his parents left?

Although he did not want me to do it, I cleaned up the house. I can't believe how dirty the kitchen and bathroom are. At least the soapy water might have made it less smelly, but it's still horrible! Didn't clean up Itsuki's bedroom or rooms he hardly enter though, but I did tell him things he might have not known.

Since I spent the whole day cleaning up, I called up my parents to say that I am staying over at a friend's house. I lied to them by saying that my friend was a girl.

That night, our bodies made contact. I was blushing endlessly and there was a weird sound coming from my mouth that I did not make. The first time was painful, but the pain subsided by the subsequent time. Don't know why I like that or want more though, but did relieve most of my stress and made me love Itsuki more.

*****

Since that day, I'm more and more attached to Itsuki. I was lucky not to get pregnant because I wasn't thinking back then. (What am I talking about?) Because I am more attached to him, I accidentally revealed our relationship to others through my actions. Well, this was somewhat unavoidable, but does not explain why he is a magnet to me.

Because of that, I noticed that there has been fewer guys trying to catch my attention as they know that I'm taken and had went to other girls. However, I still have to defend Itsuki from guys who used physical violence on him over me.

What's more suspicious lately is that everyone, including my family, seem to be whispering about something behind my back. When I get too close to them, they would abruptly separate from each other or change topic. Guys who were fans of me surround Itsuki, but were not arguing, like they are telling him a secret. When they saw me looking at them, they gave me their usual smile and turned back. I asked Itsuki later on what they were talking about, but he seems to keep changing the subject.

Just what is going on with everyone?

I have lost track of what day of the year it is anymore, since each day seem to pass by with nothing special happening, of which, was the Cultural Festival. I know, because I visited my cousin's school that had taken place just before mine and I remember seeing a lot of unfamiliar things there.

Well, the only person I know that isn't hiding anything from me is my 4-year-old sister, but she's too young to know what's going on. My age gap with her is too large because I am... hold on... how old am I? When is my birthday? I know I had birthday parties in the past, but I don't know when that was as it seemed quite random. One thing's for sure though, it does not take place in winter.

If I know what happens to the molecular structure when combined, solve complicated mathematical equations, or know how to get from Point A to Point B via the complicated train network in various ways and what are at each station, WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER MY OWN BIRTHDAY?

I don't know anything about myself...

(Continued in Part 11)

04 June 2009

Changes to the navigation menu

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(Originally posted on the updates blog yesterday)

Well, my navigation menu you see on the top of the right widget bar is starting to get messier and uglier that I have decided to do a brand new one from scratch. Actually, it got ugly and bulkier from the last update. Not only in appearance, but also the code involved. They are originally supposed to all look the same, with only the title and type of blog changed.


(extracted from an earlier post)
The navigation menu featured here is what it looked like when I first made it. Clean and simple. That empty space there was intentional, but I added random quotes or "Haruka Takahashi's Network". For ones that had the former, it was latter replaced with my latest post from Twitter. Also, hovering over a link there would have a background, but as I found out later on, this also affected other links on the blog. That problem wasn't really fixed until just last month.


(From Updates and Anime blog (English version) blogs.)
Shortly after doing v0030a, I replaced the image and have it aligned to the left. I have also made the links larger and if you hover the row where a particular link is, an image would appear. These are 60*60 images that are (at that time) also used for displaying my drawings on my non-main blogs, which itself, has now changed to 80*80 versions. In the case of the links to the Main and Technology blogs, new ones were used. If the blog does not already have a search box, I would add it as part of the menu.


(Japanese & English versions of my main blogs. Search box is not part of the navigation menu.)
The pink/red colours were originally part of an experiment to try different colours of the navigation menu, but didn't really work out well, especially with the strong red for the title. Since both blogs uses mostly pink/red and matches more than the blue version, I have left it untouched.

Also, I found the images to be quite small and decided to have it occupy the entire row. At first, it was to have the image to gradually fade from transparent to opaque from left to right and have it aligned on the far right, but it looked horrible and editing the images to get it was too troublesome. So I gave up and have it to occupy it completely. Since the blog layout that has this menu the widest is the drawings blog (back then) at 280px, I used that as reference for the maximum width.


(Technology, Drawings, and Anime (Japanese) blogs)
Not too long ago, Yukari changed her navigation menu and me changing my Twitter page (on the same day as I found images of both the avatar and background). Though simple, it actually looked nice. So in order to improve mine, I have to dump all the image codes except the avatar. The avatar is the exact same image used at Twitter, so the area for my avatar has been reduced from 80*80 to 73*73. Originally, they are supposed to have just a white background, but I use the same background as the blog background or any other image that are already used on the blog. This not only makes it looks nicer, but also save bandwidth from loading the images. Since having an image to appear when hovering over a link is removed, even more bandwidth is saved. That black semi-transparent background is actually recycled from the old drawings blog and helps reading against the textured image easier.

Except for the Anime blog in English, I'm not sure if I want to apply the new version to blogs that are still using the older version for legacy reasons or would actually match the blog layout the most. Currently, the diagonal length of the menu on the Japanese main blog is 5 inches, but the drawings blog is 3 inches. That is quite a lot. I might also replace the avatar of the new navigation menu with an identical-looking v0080 when I'm done with it.

4 June: v0080 is done and replaced all the images in the navigation menu that previously used the cropped source image (new version) or v0030a, (old version), and aligned it on the right just as when v0003 was used when the previous version was newly created. Also, the "Yukari-chan" (or "ゆかりちゃん") links are somewhat redundant and are removed.

02 June 2009

[Repost] Alternate Dimension (Part 1.2)

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I don’t really know what is going on, but I had a strange dream: There was a white light that made me felt as though my centre of gravity has been moved from my bottom to my chest. I could feel changes that are taking place all over my body. It felt like it was actually taking place, but it's just a dream, right? I once had a dream of falling of a building or cliff that felt real and woke up from the horrors of it, but it turns out that I didn't even fall off the bed! How on earth can my dreams feel so real?! I have been having too much of it lately. Since I have to get ready for school when the sun rises, I don’t think much about it.

………

The morning sunlight entered my eyes. I was still feeling sleepy when I woke up, but I had noticed that the room that I am in now seems to be somewhat different from what I remember it to be: It is unusually neat with new furniture with concrete walls painted in warm colours. Most of the things I see in this room are mine and are neatly arranged, but there are also things that looked as though they belonged to a girl. Where am I? And what is that perfume smell?

I had some difficulty getting out of bed, but that could be because I am still feeling sleepy, though I felt that my body is different that even doing the usual things felt different. Whose room am I in? Did someone drugged me while I was asleep and carried me here? If so, why would they bother carrying all of the things in my room and arrange them neatly. However, the clock points to the morning of Saturday, May 14, about 12 hours after I brought home the device from work. The device in question is still on my wrist, but it seems to have been activated not too long ago, judging by how warm it is. Besides that, everything around me seems to be a bit higher. There was also carpeting, heater, and air-conditioning in this room, something that I don’t have in my room. When it’s cold, I would use the kotatsu in the room with the TV or wear thick clothing, but during the hot summer, there’s nothing to keep me cool except to stay away from the blazing hot sun. Ice cream and bathing are not helpful as heat of the place would quickly make them warm, so the best is to head to places like at work, the convince store or ride in the train, but I can’t do the things I want to do at home there.

As I got out of the room, I noticed that my sense of balance had become different. Instead of a corridor leading to the stairs and other rooms at that level, I found myself at a corner near the living room. The place seems to be one of the recently completed apartments ("mansion" in my native language for some reason) that I could see from the train station due to its height. In the living room, there appears to have a lot of expensive-looking furniture, sculptures, paintings and fixtures judging by the design. There is also a piano at a corner. At the photo frame on the wall near the cabinet, I noticed that there is a photo frame of people smiling together that consists of my parents and one of the cutest girl I have ever seen. Looking at how much the girl resembled my parents, she could be their daughter, but who is that girl? I don’t recall having a sister, let alone meet her, so why have I not known her? Did my parents deliberately not let me know of her existence since birth or know anything about this house? Well, they are hardly at my house, and now they claim that they are working overseas.

Wanting to know more, I looked through the cabinet there for some clues. Out of horror, it looked as though my existence has been replaced by this girl as, I remember, are all of the places I had been to around the time the photo was taken. However, there are also photos of her showing off her high grades, winning some bursaries with large amounts of money, and even shook hands of famous and important people! (I’m so jealous of her…) She also appeared to be of the same age as me and goes to a prestigious high school just at the top of the hill from mine. What puzzled me however, is how and why were my large number of my things transferred from my house to this place while I was asleep? Stop time? And want to meet up with me after she herself found out about me? Speaking of her, where is she? She should heading to school now, but the house is eerily quiet.

Looking at the time, it seems that I would be late for school if I don't hurry, even though it's a half-day being a Saturday. I tried to prepare my uniform, but I can't seem to find it anywhere in the house. I did however, found several sets of female uniforms of the school that I was so jealous of inside the wardrobe of room I woke up in. In fact, none of the clothes and shoes in here are mine, but my clothes are nowhere to be found. Without the time to stay there and think, I had a quick breakfast and then proceed on to freshen up myself and take a shower instead of taking a bath. Since I don’t like my face, I normally don’t look at the mirror.

As I start to remove my clothes, I realized that I am still wearing my work pass and the device I was working on from yesterday and placed those aside. However, that was when I noticed that my fingers looked different, my skin feels unusually smooth, the hair on my legs are missing. I never really thought much about those until I felt something missing when I removed my unusually silky smooth and thin underwear and it felt that I’m still wearing something when I thought I had removed everything. It feels as though it is binding to my chest…

!!!

To my surprise, I was wearing a bra! Huh??? Why am I wearing that? Removing them not only had the binding feeling removed, it also revealed two large semi-sphere shaped things that are sticking out of my chest with my nipple at the tip of them being pink and larger-than-usual. I could feel being touched as I touched them, as though they really are a part of my body without any artificial objects inside. They were soft and warm like the rest of my body. (I was blushing for some reason as I did this.) Just to be sure, I looked at my genitals. I though I felt something odd there too…

!!!!!!

Instead of the “rod” that had been bothering me a lot, I had an opening of some sort that looks like a long horizontal month without teeth or lips. Instead of tongue, there was a tiny button-like thing at the front tip that could pop up if touched. (The whole area reminds me of an alien’s mouth if you ask me.) Well, it’s visibly obvious that females have breasts, but I didn’t know they have such things for their bottoms too. No wonder they look comfortable in that tight-looking swimsuit that appeared to be smaller than them before putting it on. I wonder…

………

After gaining consciousness from going crazy after repeatedly touching my newly-discovered body parts and sprouting out liquid of some sort from inside me that is not urine (I felt hesitant, happy, and kept thinking that my old rod is inside me all at the same time for some reason), I noticed that the way my body reacted and the voice that came out of my mouth sounded was indeed that of a girl. It’s hard to tell what my new voice sounds like to others, as (under my old voice) what I heard myself saying is different than if someone were to play back a recording of it. I cleaned up the mess I made and took a shower instead of a bath, seeing at how much time I had wasted doing all those unnecessary (though important) things. Also, this part is too dangerous as I can’t stop or even prevent myself from getting an unwanted pregnancy if I was forced to have sex. Since I was a guy, the idea of being able to produce milk, being able to create a living thing, having it grown inside me for almost a year, and it growing to be as large as me and calling me “mama” is foreign to me.

As I wondered how to take a shower with this newly-discovered female body of mine, I questioned myself why this is happening to me or what happened that caused me to be like this? Well, the changes that had happened to me are of my deepest desires of indirectly not wanting to be a male, but I never thought that it would actually happen like this! I am somewhat happy that this happened, but I’m also worried about how different will my life be now that I’m a girl in an expensive apartment instead of a boy in a run-down house. I wonder how do I look like now? I’m too scared to find out for fear that a girl would slap me for staring, but now there’s nothing wrong with looking at girls now that I’m a girl myself …right? And, *gulp* will I be attracted to guys instead to girls now? What will happen to my relation with Kotomi?

Back in my room after taking a shower, I wore the underwear and the uniform I saw earlier in the wardrobe: it consists of a ribbon, blazer, white long-sleeved blouse and a skirt. There are also separate sets for summer and physical education. Is that prestigious school I was always jealous of is now really my school? I don’t see any other uniform except for the female uniform of the middle school I went to. Where did my male clothing disappear to? Were they all replaced with these female clothing? It felt awkward as the panties are too easy to put on, but the bra being too troublesome. Putting any kind of clothes on, would now mean that they would take up the shape of my breasts at the upper part and is impossible to hide them. Also, clothing that don’t have buttons or zippers are now more troublesome to take on and off. Although I was used to wearing my uniform quite loosely as a guy (though not too loose that it falls off easily), this uniform actually fits me quite nice. Since I was used to loose clothing, I though that they were tight at first. I was also surprised at how impossible it is to remove my skirt without simply unzipping it that felt as though it is stuck to my hips. It certainly is better than those troublesome trousers, but the feeling of air flowing below me and on my legs makes me wonder if I’m even wearing anything there. At least I could move my legs freely: there are types of skirts I might have to wear in the future that would force me to be not be able to run or move my legs sideways wider than standing without having both of my legs together, something I can't do without sitting down. There is also this dark-coloured thing that goes all the way from my legs to my hips. I don't know what this is, but in the recent non-summer photos of me in my uniform (as a female) I saw earlier, I was wearing this instead of socks. It feels almost as smooth as my skin. My legs look as though they really are black, but since it's tight and still feel airy, it make me feel more comfortable than walking around than in trousers and does make up for the fact that my skirt does not completely protect my legs from the cold on top of letting air flow inside from the bottom. With all that clothing I am wearing right now, I don’t think I want to ever take them off. I had also put up some hair accessories before heading towards the mirror, which I was not looking forward to.

What I saw actually pleased me: instead of my face, I saw the face of the pretty girl I saw in the photos from earlier in her high school uniform being reflected in the mirror. It was so hard to believe that I am that girl that I though that the girl I’m seeing in the mirror is trying to catch my attention to the point that I feel that I am attracted to that girl. My attractiveness is so powerful that I think guys would follow me around, and if I look at myself in the mirror, my mind would be sending mixed messages of “be her boyfriend: she’s looking at me!” and “that girl I’m seeing is myself, so whatever”. The idea of being attracted to myself sounds silly, but the me I saw is not what I'm used to.

Rushing for time, I grabbed whatever was lying on the study desk, and put it into my bag. Outside the toilet on the way to the kitchen, I also wore the device I was working on on my wrist and my work pass (it still had my old face) in one of my pockets. (I realized that putting anything other than thin, small and light objects in my skirt pocket is a bad idea, so those go into the blazer pockets or the bag instead.) I had a quick breakfast, wore my shoes, and proceeded to close the door. I noticed that the shoes are a bit worn and small, but so are my feet. As I locked the front door, I saw "久川" (Hisakawa), my family name, at the door. At least this confirms that I am at my current house, but what is my current given name? Can’t be Itsuko… (lol) I also haven’t really explored all the rooms in the house, so I haven’t figured out where everything is, if there is any.

The corridor I'm in now had some other doors identical to my front door, but with numbering that I don't understand. Unlike other levels, the level I'm living on now seem to have only one unit and none for the level above, but seemed to be occupied by something not accessible on that level. Judging by how low below the houses are at ground level and how tall the building appeared from down there, it appears that I am at one of the topmost floors of the apartment. I found the elevator. The lobby decorated in such a way that reminded me of being at a 4/5 star hotel, although the staircase behind a door nearby with an emergency exit sign above it looked rather plain, a sharp contrast to the lift lobby. However, it is there I found out what level I’m on before taking the lift as there's no display on the outside besides the up/down indicator. Otherwise, I would not know how to get back and could easily miss the indicator in the elevator when entering. Also, the idea of taking the elevator to get out or into my house is alien to me too, but that is partly because I rarely ever use the elevator.

For the fun of it, I jumped around in the elevator on the way down and actually hit the ceiling, quite high considering my height and the size of the elevator. My ears felt funny on the way down.

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(Revised on 9 June 2009; Republished on 30 June 2009 due to persistent comment spamming)

Alternate Dimension (Part 1.2)

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[Revised on 9 June 2009]
(continued from Part 1.1 / 4th paragraph of Part 1)

I don’t really know what is going on, but I had a strange dream: There was a white light that made me felt as though my centre of gravity has been moved from my bottom to my chest. I could feel changes that are taking place all over my body. It felt like it was actually taking place, but it's just a dream, right? I once had a dream of falling of a building or cliff that felt real and woke up from the horrors of it, but it turns out that I didn't even fall off the bed! How on earth can my dreams feel so real?! I have been having too much of it lately. Since I have to get ready for school when the sun rises, I don’t think much about it.

………

The morning sunlight entered my eyes. I was still feeling sleepy when I woke up, but I had noticed that the room that I am in now seems to be somewhat different from what I remember it to be: It is unusually neat with new furniture with concrete walls painted in warm colours. Most of the things I see in this room are mine and are neatly arranged, but there are also things that looked as though they belonged to a girl. Where am I? And what is that perfume smell?

I had some difficulty getting out of bed, but that could be because I am still feeling sleepy, though I felt that my body is different that even doing the usual things felt different. Whose room am I in? Did someone drugged me while I was asleep and carried me here? If so, why would they bother carrying all of the things in my room and arrange them neatly. However, the clock points to the morning of Saturday, May 14, about 12 hours after I brought home the device from work. The device in question is still on my wrist, but it seems to have been activated not too long ago, judging by how warm it is. Besides that, everything around me seems to be a bit higher. There was also carpeting, heater, and air-conditioning in this room, something that I don’t have in my room. When it’s cold, I would use the kotatsu in the room with the TV or wear thick clothing, but during the hot summer, there’s nothing to keep me cool except to stay away from the blazing hot sun. Ice cream and bathing are not helpful as heat of the place would quickly make them warm, so the best is to head to places like at work, the convince store or ride in the train, but I can’t do the things I want to do at home there.

As I got out of the room, I noticed that my sense of balance had become different. Instead of a corridor leading to the stairs and other rooms at that level, I found myself at a corner near the living room. The place seems to be one of the recently completed apartments ("mansion" in my native language for some reason) that I could see from the train station due to its height. In the living room, there appears to have a lot of expensive-looking furniture, sculptures, paintings and fixtures judging by the design. There is also a piano at a corner. At the photo frame on the wall near the cabinet, I noticed that there is a photo frame of people smiling together that consists of my parents and one of the cutest girl I have ever seen. Looking at how much the girl resembled my parents, she could be their daughter, but who is that girl? I don’t recall having a sister, let alone meet her, so why have I not known her? Did my parents deliberately not let me know of her existence since birth or know anything about this house? Well, they are hardly at my house, and now they claim that they are working overseas.

Wanting to know more, I looked through the cabinet there for some clues. Out of horror, it looked as though my existence has been replaced by this girl as, I remember, are all of the places I had been to around the time the photo was taken. However, there are also photos of her showing off her high grades, winning some bursaries with large amounts of money, and even shook hands of famous and important people! (I’m so jealous of her…) She also appeared to be of the same age as me and goes to a prestigious high school just at the top of the hill from mine. What puzzled me however, is how and why were my large number of my things transferred from my house to this place while I was asleep? Stop time? And want to meet up with me after she herself found out about me? Speaking of her, where is she? She should heading to school now, but the house is eerily quiet.

Looking at the time, it seems that I would be late for school if I don't hurry, even though it's a half-day being a Saturday. I tried to prepare my uniform, but I can't seem to find it anywhere in the house. I did however, found several sets of female uniforms of the school that I was so jealous of inside the wardrobe of room I woke up in. In fact, none of the clothes and shoes in here are mine, but my clothes are nowhere to be found. Without the time to stay there and think, I had a quick breakfast and then proceed on to freshen up myself and take a shower instead of taking a bath. Since I don’t like my face, I normally don’t look at the mirror.

As I start to remove my clothes, I realized that I am still wearing my work pass and the device I was working on from yesterday and placed those aside. However, that was when I noticed that my fingers looked different, my skin feels unusually smooth, the hair on my legs are missing. I never really thought much about those until I felt something missing when I removed my unusually silky smooth and thin underwear and it felt that I’m still wearing something when I thought I had removed everything. It feels as though it is binding to my chest…

!!!

To my surprise, I was wearing a bra! Huh??? Why am I wearing that? Removing them not only had the binding feeling removed, it also revealed two large semi-sphere shaped things that are sticking out of my chest with my nipple at the tip of them being pink and larger-than-usual. I could feel being touched as I touched them, as though they really are a part of my body without any artificial objects inside. They were soft and warm like the rest of my body. (I was blushing for some reason as I did this.) Just to be sure, I looked at my genitals. I though I felt something odd there too…

!!!!!!

Instead of the “rod” that had been bothering me a lot, I had an opening of some sort that looks like a long horizontal month without teeth or lips. Instead of tongue, there was a tiny button-like thing at the front tip that could pop up if touched. (The whole area reminds me of an alien’s mouth if you ask me.) Well, it’s visibly obvious that females have breasts, but I didn’t know they have such things for their bottoms too. No wonder they look comfortable in that tight-looking swimsuit that appeared to be smaller than them before putting it on. I wonder…

………

After gaining consciousness from going crazy after repeatedly touching my newly-discovered body parts and sprouting out liquid of some sort from inside me that is not urine (I felt hesitant, happy, and kept thinking that my old rod is inside me all at the same time for some reason), I noticed that the way my body reacted and the voice that came out of my mouth sounded was indeed that of a girl. It’s hard to tell what my new voice sounds like to others, as (under my old voice) what I heard myself saying is different than if someone were to play back a recording of it. I cleaned up the mess I made and took a shower instead of a bath, seeing at how much time I had wasted doing all those unnecessary (though important) things. Also, this part is too dangerous as I can’t stop or even prevent myself from getting an unwanted pregnancy if I was forced to have sex. Since I was a guy, the idea of being able to produce milk, being able to create a living thing, having it grown inside me for almost a year, and it growing to be as large as me and calling me “mama” is foreign to me.

As I wondered how to take a shower with this newly-discovered female body of mine, I questioned myself why this is happening to me or what happened that caused me to be like this? Well, the changes that had happened to me are of my deepest desires of indirectly not wanting to be a male, but I never thought that it would actually happen like this! I am somewhat happy that this happened, but I’m also worried about how different will my life be now that I’m a girl in an expensive apartment instead of a boy in a run-down house. I wonder how do I look like now? I’m too scared to find out for fear that a girl would slap me for staring, but now there’s nothing wrong with looking at girls now that I’m a girl myself …right? And, *gulp* will I be attracted to guys instead to girls now? What will happen to my relation with Kotomi?

Back in my room after taking a shower, I wore the underwear and the uniform I saw earlier in the wardrobe: it consists of a ribbon, blazer, white long-sleeved blouse and a skirt. There are also separate sets for summer and physical education. Is that prestigious school I was always jealous of is now really my school? I don’t see any other uniform except for the female uniform of the middle school I went to. Where did my male clothing disappear to? Were they all replaced with these female clothing? It felt awkward as the panties are too easy to put on, but the bra being too troublesome. Putting any kind of clothes on, would now mean that they would take up the shape of my breasts at the upper part and is impossible to hide them. Also, clothing that don’t have buttons or zippers are now more troublesome to take on and off. Although I was used to wearing my uniform quite loosely as a guy (though not too loose that it falls off easily), this uniform actually fits me quite nice. Since I was used to loose clothing, I though that they were tight at first. I was also surprised at how impossible it is to remove my skirt without simply unzipping it that felt as though it is stuck to my hips. It certainly is better than those troublesome trousers, but the feeling of air flowing below me and on my legs makes me wonder if I’m even wearing anything there. At least I could move my legs freely: there are types of skirts I might have to wear in the future that would force me to be not be able to run or move my legs sideways wider than standing without having both of my legs together, something I can't do without sitting down. There is also this dark-coloured thing that goes all the way from my legs to my hips. I don't know what this is, but in the recent non-summer photos of me in my uniform (as a female) I saw earlier, I was wearing this instead of socks. It feels almost as smooth as my skin. My legs look as though they really are black, but since it's tight and still feel airy, it make me feel more comfortable than walking around than in trousers and does make up for the fact that my skirt does not completely protect my legs from the cold on top of letting air flow inside from the bottom. With all that clothing I am wearing right now, I don’t think I want to ever take them off. I had also put up some hair accessories before heading towards the mirror, which I was not looking forward to.

What I saw actually pleased me: instead of my face, I saw the face of the pretty girl I saw in the photos from earlier in her high school uniform being reflected in the mirror. It was so hard to believe that I am that girl that I though that the girl I’m seeing in the mirror is trying to catch my attention to the point that I feel that I am attracted to that girl. My attractiveness is so powerful that I think guys would follow me around, and if I look at myself in the mirror, my mind would be sending mixed messages of “be her boyfriend: she’s looking at me!” and “that girl I’m seeing is myself, so whatever”. The idea of being attracted to myself sounds silly, but the me I saw is not what I'm used to.

Rushing for time, I grabbed whatever was lying on the study desk, and put it into my bag. Outside the toilet on the way to the kitchen, I also wore the device I was working on on my wrist and my work pass (it still had my old face) in one of my pockets. (I realized that putting anything other than thin, small and light objects in my skirt pocket is a bad idea, so those go into the blazer pockets or the bag instead.) I had a quick breakfast, wore my shoes, and proceeded to close the door. I noticed that the shoes are a bit worn and small, but so are my feet. As I locked the front door, I saw "久川" (Hisakawa), my family name, at the door. At least this confirms that I am at my current house, but what is my current given name? Can’t be Itsuko… (lol) I also haven’t really explored all the rooms in the house, so I haven’t figured out where everything is, if there is any.

The corridor I'm in now had some other doors identical to my front door, but with numbering that I don't understand. Unlike other levels, the level I'm living on now seem to have only one unit and none for the level above, but seemed to be occupied by something not accessible on that level. Judging by how low below the houses are at ground level and how tall the building appeared from down there, it appears that I am at one of the topmost floors of the apartment. I found the elevator. The lobby decorated in such a way that reminded me of being at a 4/5 star hotel, although the staircase behind a door nearby with an emergency exit sign above it looked rather plain, a sharp contrast to the lift lobby. However, it is there I found out what level I’m on before taking the lift as there's no display on the outside besides the up/down indicator. Otherwise, I would not know how to get back and could easily miss the indicator in the elevator when entering. Also, the idea of taking the elevator to get out or into my house is alien to me too, but that is partly because I rarely ever use the elevator.

For the fun of it, I jumped around in the elevator on the way down and actually hit the ceiling, quite high considering my height and the size of the elevator. My ears felt funny on the way down.

(to be continued on the 15th paragraph of Part 1)

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